Day 7. I’m so dead from all of that now. Jesus. Today is a day to sleep. I’ll probably play just dance all day tomorrow. Might run some. I’m not too sure. I feel like crap.

Today is day six and I’m feelin’ like a failure. Yesterday I never went running. I was making plans for today with my bestfriend(first time I’l be seeing her in a year) and packing and making playlists and before I knew it it was 1am. I’m going over to my friend’s house today and spending the night with her so no cardio again today. I will be going to the beach and shopping though.. So swimming and lots of walking? I’m going to try not to eat absolutely horribly, but no promises.. Tomorrow I start back my regular routine.

Today is my 5th day and I’ve had a terrible morning so far. With terrible people I dislike very very much coming over in the morning to talk to my grandmother and probably ask her for money or yell at her about how she did their taxes (my grandma doesn’t even do her own taxes, my mom does them, she’s just an 88 year old lady who doesn’t know how to tell people to fuck off) waking me up. The plumbing in my house is total shit so neither one of our bathrooms are functional, that was started by my cousin last night. I haven’t done my cardio yet today because of said company. I can’t go anywhere because the showers don’t work and my sister, who is the only one who will take me anywhere, won’t leave the house without taking a shower first. My grandma decided to go out after her company left to stock up the house on junk food, knowing darn well that I’m trying not to eat that anymore.. So especially for me she bought Bacon Pizza, Powered Sugar Chex Mix, and Nutter Bars. Thanks for your support, Grandma. I haven’t eaten anything yet this morning, so I guess I’m off to make a protein shake. I feel horrible. This is fantastic.

Day 4.

I went 22 minutes into my workout today before almost passing out and having to stop. I don’t know. I felt shitty about it for the majority of the day. But hey, I got over it. I’m going to try again tomorrow. And the day after. And the day after. I’m not going to get results immediately. I need to stop stressing and being to uptight about all of it. My arms are going to be realllly nice once I’m done with this.. And so are my legs..dang. I hope my core is coming along with it! 

So, even though today wasn’t the best.. I’m staying positive. Only four days in.